So this time last year I was on the path to being a children's book illustrator.
I found out that's not the direction I should be going in right now. It might happen later but for the time being, I'm working on editorial type illustrations and just having fun with all of it.
I draw or create art every day but the amount of pressure has been lifted.
I went into the children's book world because every one told me that my work looked like it would be a good fit.
Well great.
However, that didn't necessarily mean I would be a good fit for the children's book world.
I create from the heart as all artists do but the work that I was doing was empty. It didn't have my passion or my love in it which meant the drawings came out lifeless and dull.
Lifeless and dull is not me.
I tried it. I didn't like it. It's okay.
After that I took a long look at how far my art skill had progressed since before graduation and after.
I've come a long way.
I'm an illustrator. I'm a designer. I'm an artist. All of this is true.
The question I always find myself asking is where do I belong? Do I belong anywhere? I stopped putting pressure on myself to create and just started having fun with it again.
What happened was amazing.
Me being the fearless person I am, I took a risk. I started looking for work that I could do to fuel my artistic hunger. I didn't know where this would take me and I didn't know what exactly I was looking for but I knew it was out there.
What I found was freedom.
I am now a graphic designer for a real estate company where I get to create marketing postcards. They wanted someone artistic, creative, and someone that thinks outside the box.
That's perfect!!
I can't tell you how refreshing it is to be able to have the artistic freedom to create ideas from scratch. I get to put my unique creative talents to work and they get fresh new ideas that no one has ever seen!!
Pinch me!
