I must be crazy to be this devoted to trying to figure out what my artistic purpose is.
I get so frustrated with myself because it almost feels like I'm losing focus sometimes but in reality I'm trying to find my voice and figure out the best way to say what I want to say with my art. I'm tough on myself because I know that's what it's going to take.
I read and study all kinds of work each and every day.
I want to absorb as much of a variety of art that I can to help build my visual language.
I've been doing this for over a year now and looking back I've definitely progressed beyond where I was but I have so much further to go.
I look at my work now and I'm disappointed. I want it to be more. I want it to have feeling and life but it doesn't. So what do I do? I start over.
Who does that?
Who spends hours working on something and then when it's finished realizes it doesn't look the way it's supposed to so they start over?
I must be crazy.